Well I finally did it.  I am not the best when it comes to explaining anything, so please bear with me as i try to tell you the story this tattoo tells.

For the greater part of my life, I have suffered from Anorexia, and Bulimia but I am now free from that hell. And that is thanks to Mr. Patrick Schulz. I met Patrick  on Myspace and began speaking in passing. Most of you know who Mr. Schulz is, but for those that don't. Basically he is a German born Pro-Wrestler standing 6 foot 3 inches and I think he weighs in at 235lbs. But he is much more than that. Well I had began speaking with him in a message, and I was whinnying really bad about how bad my back was hurting due to my workout level, (funny thing is the same part of my back that was hurting is now where the tattoo is)  and as part of his reply was Champions Train Losers Complain. Well I wrote the quote down on a post it note and put it on my bathroom mirror. It became the first thing I saw in the morning and the last things I saw at night. As time went on, I began to embody that quote into everything I did from working to working out. Then I came to realize I could never reach my goals or be who I wanted to be as a person if I did not change. With those I found the strength to finally for the first time in my life defeat my daemon.

You see Patrick did not know at first that I had a disorder until I finally told him one day, I just could not hide it any longer. But he never treated me differently after I finally did tell him the truth, and that meant a lot to me. I could not think of a way to thank him for all if his help and just being there for me when I really needed someone. Then it hit me, I wanted to tattoo the quote onto my body, I wanted to show the world who and what had inspired me. I mean how do you really thank someone that has giving you the tools you needed to take back your life. I was so scared to ask him if he would be ok with me doing the quote as a tattoo, but thankfully he said yes. I cant even begin to explain how that made me feel.

For me this quote is more about you can do anything you put your mind to do.   That is takes inner strengh to stand up and fight when you have nothing left.   I am very proud of this tattoo, and i love it with all my heart.   I respect those that dont understand....And i know how insane it all is to be inspired by a man i have never met or even heard his voice. I hope this little blog helped shed a little light on the story behind the ink.

I'm still not Without Wax (perfect), but I now know I don't have to be.

Dreaming comes so easily
'Cause it's all that I've known
True love is a fairy tale
I'm damaged, so how would I know

I'm scared and I'm alone
I'm ashamed
And I need for you to know

I didn't say all the things that I wanted to say
And you can't take back what you've taken away
'Cause I feel you, I feel you near me

I didn't say all the things that I wanted to say
And you can't take back what you've taken away
'Cause I feel you, I feel you near me

Healing comes so painfully
And it chills to the bone
Will anyone get close to me?
I'm damaged, as I'm sure you know

There's mending for my soul
An ending to this fear
Forgiveness for a man who was stronger
I was just a little girl, but I can't go back

Make your own Zing!

I told another lie today
And I got through this day
No one saw through my games
I know the right words to say
Like "I don't feel well"
"I ate before I came"

Then someone tells me how good I look
and for a moment
For a moment I am happy
But when I'm alone
No one hears me cry

I need you to know
I'm not through the night
Some days I'm still fighting to walk towards the light
I need you to know
That we'll be okay
Together we can make it through another day

I don't know the first time I felt unbeautiful
The day I chose not to eat
What I do know is how I changed my life forever
I know I should know better
There are days when I'm okay
And for a moment
For a moment I find hope
But there are days when I'm not okay
And I need your help
So I'm letting go

I need you to know
I'm not through the night
Some days I'm still fighting to walk towards the light
I need you to know
That we'll be okay
Together we can make it through another day

You should know you're not on your own
These secrets are walls that keep us alone
I don't know when but I know now
Together we'll make it through somehow
Together we'll make it through somehow

I need you to know
I'm not through the night
Some days I'm still fighting to walk towards the light
I need you to know
That we'll be okay
Together we can make it through another day